Gwenology =)

I won't give up

2012-02-07T06:17:00.000-08:00

That's what I am feeling right now!

微加幸福

2012-01-25T06:42:00.000-08:00

Started watching Office Girls, a Taiwanese idol drama by Roy Chiu. Quite a nice song re-sang by him in the show.

Walk through it

2012-01-19T08:00:00.000-08:00

"I am not sure", if you were to ask me about my decision. For, I believe nobody knows if I have never really been through it. I can sense that it is not easy, but I am not going to give up so easily too.

不像個大人

2012-01-13T03:53:00.000-08:00

Sometimes when you meet the right person, regardless of how much he can give you.. You would give him everything and feel that it is totally worth it! Heard this song at Amezing and feel that it is really meaningful! Have you met this person?

2012-01-08T06:24:00.000-08:00

The higher you climb, the heavier you fall. I don't feel the need to explain my decisions to every single one, for this is my own life. I choose the path I want to go. I am taking a risk, yes. For I don't want to waste everyone's time. My only expectation is the chance to learn, to develop and grow. Am I asking too much?

Happy 2011

2012-01-04T04:16:00.000-08:00

I had been very quiet on this blog recently. Been doing a lot of thinking and self-reflection. I decide to take the "risk". My one and only, the most important, resolution for 2012 is to find myself.

Time Alone

2011-12-26T06:51:00.000-08:00

Just need some time alone, when I don't response be patient. Once I sort out my feelings I will stay connected.

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-25T09:05:00.000-08:00

Quite a nice Christmas celebration this year. Spent the eve of the eve with my long time best clicks at Shuffle. A drinking place with live band shuffling between english and chinese pop songs. Live band is my love! Had a great night out with a bottle of vodka absolute. I think I drank most of it! =D Got my dream present (thanks Leo!). So sorry to Daphne, I forgot to bring hers out! Knocked out in the cab on the way back and I can still remember the taxi driver told me not to take lift with strangers! Such a nice driver. I had a sudden craving for steamboat and I got to have it for 2 consecutive nights! Lucky me, but not shiok enough! Going to have more of it again! =PDecember is ending so soon! I shall try to have some new year resolutions!!

2011-12-20T03:35:00.000-08:00

Here she is, all mine, trying her best to give me all she can. How could I ever hurt her? But I didn’t understand then. That I could hurt somebody so badly she would never recover. That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.

— Haruki Murakami (South Of The Border, West Of The Sun)

We were born to die

2011-12-18T06:26:00.001-08:00

2011-12-17T11:43:00.001-08:00

Just when I am starting to move on to a more positive light, something at home slapped me again. Another down with cancer. I really hate you, for taking so many from me.

2011-12-16T08:58:00.000-08:00

Yet to be stabilized. Many thoughts in my mind once again. I think it's really the time to speak up. I cannot see myself going anywhere. Wasting my time, talent. I like to work with my brain, not my mouth.

I have a Dream

2011-12-10T05:22:00.001-08:00

We all have dreams. Some dream to be a successful person, some dream to be rich. Some dream to be someone who can give back to the society, some dream to have a family. What is your dream? What happens when one day you realize the dream you had been holding is not what you really want? Maybe it's time to face up to your true self. Not the image you want to create. Being honest with your heart is the first step to finding the true you.

2011-12-05T05:22:00.000-08:00

Famously Already

2011-12-03T09:54:00.001-08:00

I reckon it's time to blog properly! I had been too busy lately. There are many times in live when we have to learn to let go, move on with live. No point weeping everyday, there are many things wonderful waiting for you to be done. From the 2 deaths at home, I learnt to forgive and forget. Always remember, when you forgive and forget you are helping yourself too. ________________________________________________________________________________Anyway, I did not blog my full thoughts on Apple of my eyes but I am going to give my real thoughts for Already Famous.Michelle Chong is realy a very smart, pretty and talented girl. To be honest, this movie is only worth 60 marks in my mind. However, I think she put in a lot of efforts. There are parts where the jokes are really original and funny. However, I am deducting marks whenever the jokes/plot is too localized. For some reasons, I just don't like too much Singaporean style in the movie. The plot of the story revolves around a typical dream chasing lead. Very plain jane story plot. However, Alien is so cute in the movie! With his Pin Tou and smile, it melts my heart!

RIP: -1994 - 2011

2011-11-29T08:02:00.001-08:00

I think you are so beautiful, so kind hearted. You will be missed, but I believe you are at a better place now with no more sufferings.

好朋友只是朋友

2011-11-27T06:23:00.001-08:00

2011-11-22T06:09:00.001-08:00

Having experienced 2 deaths in the family within 3 days, I think I am numbed.

The One That Got Away

2011-11-20T07:11:00.001-08:00

When everything goes wrong, you get so down and low. Crying is the only way to express your emotion. When you get tired of crying, you stopped because you felt numb. No one is supposed to see the weak side, so you put on a smiley face to meet the world again, with your heart bleeding.

人生就是不停的戰鬥

2011-11-18T10:31:00.001-08:00

The reason why this movie is so popular, is that most people most love the times when they were in school. I had yet to watch it, but the trailer brings me back many memories in school. The times we play hard, study hard. The rebellious time I had. The first crush. The first love. The first break up. The first time I topped the class. The times I cried in school. The first time I got bullied. Good and bad memories. They are all precious, thank you for being a part of my life regardless good or bad.

Let's take the Risk

2011-11-17T06:02:00.001-08:00

So many things running through my brain, I do not know where to start. Am I willingly to take the risk? Why Not? Young only once, if I failed this time I can start all over again!

你在煩惱什麼?

2011-11-15T05:51:00.001-08:00

Time seems so precious nowadays. I had kind of worked out what I want to do in the next 4 years. Hopefully I get the positions I want. I think nobody is sure of the path they really want until they really try their hands in it. I had been thinking about it and came to a conclusion. This conclusion may not be my destination in future, but for now it is.

那些年

2011-11-13T07:54:00.001-08:00

I think I need some time to ponder about the best next move. I realized sometimes I am just too stubborn, holding on to something so long ago, something which I know will not come true. I had been like this all these years, many it would be good to start everything a fresh.

So Wonderful

2011-11-07T06:35:00.000-08:00

There is so many things I want to do. I am wonder woman!Which one goes first?What should come later?Let's hope I finish all before 30 =D

Explore the impossible

2011-11-06T23:42:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I feel I am lucky.I can choose whatever path I want to do in life.I am not bonded.I am not controlled by parent's decision.I like to take a risk, try something different.I don't like to jump into doing something which I know I am good at, I like to challenge myself to something new. If you are talented, you excel everywhere you go.

Coco Married

2011-11-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

Pretty Coco got married with so many stars to perform during her wedding!Bruno Mars, Alicia Key, Black Eye Peas!!! OMG!!What a wonderful and fun wedding she had! Envy Envy!

Ain't she drop dead gorgeous? =D

2011-11-01T08:40:00.000-07:00

想到你想起我胸口依然温柔如果你想起我你会想到什么

It's Time

2011-10-31T07:20:00.000-07:00

The time frame is roughly out. I should put an end to all these nonsense.I shall stop being stubborn and face up to the reality.

Materialistic

2011-10-30T04:55:00.000-07:00

With buying power doesn't equate to spending endlessly, aimlessly on branded goods. I cannot deny that branded goods do have better quality, but design wise? Are they really the most trendy design or most favorable? Sometimes we are just blindly chasing after the most branded stuff, why so material?I choose not to be different, but to me myself =D

Childish

2011-10-28T09:17:00.000-07:00

Read about the news that Selina's husband is creating a scene about Hebe's new song which was meant for Selina. Hebe dedicated the song to Selina and was accused of using Selina for publicity. Come on, Hebe is widely recognized for a good singer since her first debut album. Being the top few selling album of 2010. Her ability to sing is undeniable. Why would she need to use Selina ? A nicer phrase for him is childish, or money minded suits him more?

A Step at a time?

2011-10-25T20:29:00.000-07:00

Call me Idealistic. I still like the way theories are applied to idea environment in classroom context. You can choose to vary one conditions and test out the consequence of such action. This very much resemble a scientific research scenario. The real world context is much more complicated. So complex that sometimes I feel it suffocating. Why is the world so complicated? But I feel this is the opportunity to learn and see the world. These are valuable experiences I can bring them with me back to school. I will go back to school, definitely. I am beginning to plan my ways out. I like social psychology, they have wonderful theories so beautiful that entices me. The beauty of it, cannot be pinned down in words. With more experience then would I be an interesting lecturer right?Such a sweet song for her husband !

Happy

2011-10-21T10:26:00.000-07:00

Received a thank you message from a girl I helped.She did well for her math test =DShe apologized for making quite a lot of careless mistakes for the test.I replied to her that she don't own me anything. Studying and scoring well is being responsible to herself. There is a lot of satisfaction from helping her to pass her math test to scoring a B3 today. Although B3 is not a very good grade to many, but I believe this give her the ego boost. She would be more confident of her math in future. This is what I am looking for, satisfaction in whatever I am doing =D

Choice

2011-10-19T07:58:00.000-07:00

When you don't make a choice, you don't hurt others but you end up hurting yourself.

2011-10-16T07:02:00.000-07:00

It was a night out with the live band. It was a girls night out and we were supposed to be gossiping away. But my mind only had the band in mind. I was listening so attentively to the music that i was barely inside the conversation. Music is my love. Good music to be exact. Some point in life, I will chase after you.

Hiding my heart

2011-10-14T10:28:00.000-07:00

美好人生

2011-10-12T07:44:00.000-07:00

I come to terms that everyone has a dream they want to pursue.
This is a good thing.
We live for our dreams.
I do have dreams too and I will pursue it regardless.
I think the best way to handle is to give your blessing.

56

2011-10-09T04:25:00.000-07:00

No doubt this is yet another person blogging about Steve Job's passing.
Everyone is blogging about it. It seems like I should join in and write something about him.

To be honest, I took a module in school and read about the lawsuit between Microsoft and Apple quite long ago. I remembered vividly how Apple was sued for copying Microsoft's product. There was some copyright issues on computer coding. The case is really complicated, involving copyright issues which is still vaguely defined today.

I am not taking sides, for this is really hard to tell.

However I am impressed and fascinated by the Apple products. Even if they did copy Microsoft, they did make changes to them and turn their own products to be so successful today.

There is a time line for everything. 56, seems pretty young in today's context. However, he lived a life so meaningful I think he should have no regrets.

Who knows?

Who Are You

2011-10-08T09:06:00.000-07:00

Really sleep deprived. But when I am given the opportunity to replenish it I decide to do other things. Irony isn't it?

Life is an irony, it has always been one.
Not everyone is born knowing what they want to do in life.
We try and error to explore.

You are not alone

Who Are You

Smiling when I really feel like weeping

2011-10-05T06:01:00.000-07:00

Hit by 2 very bad news this Monday morning before leaving my house.

My cousin of 17, left only 6 months to live on. I had seen her fought chemotherapy, lost her hair, lost her appetite. Leukemia gradually develops breast cancer, and lost her breasts. The thought of losing her soon, makes my heart sank.

I had another cousin, fighting brain cancer, seems vulnerable at this point too. Cancer is genetics, will my turn come?

With this 2 pieces of news, I left. With a heavy heart, I don't feel like talking.

The truth is nobody knows the pain and I still have to continue entertain people. Sometimes I am so tired that I just want to be alone.

猜不透

2011-10-02T05:33:00.000-07:00

如果忽遠忽近的灑脫
是你要的自由
那我寧願回到一個人生活
如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔
是你的藉口
那我寧願對你從沒認真過
到底這感覺誰對誰錯
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

2011-09-29T07:53:00.000-07:00

My Senior told me about the joint graduate program between NUS and a university in USA. He is currently the first person in this program and soon the program will be launch in NUS.

One year in NUS and one year in USA. Sounds pretty good to me. I can fulfill my dream of studying overseas in one year's time! =D

The next thing to prepare is "money money money". Maybe I can get some sponsorship?
______________________________________________________________________________________

Lately I had been thinking a lot. I know deep down where the problem is, but I think I need some time to decide. I shall give myself some grace period.

Today, is the day

2011-09-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

Quite happy I did something I never imagined I would achieve. With thoughts of even giving up, the fact that I came thus far prove that "you never know till you tried".

It is a fact that this is not my individual credit, with all the help and support I got thus I come so far.

Bad gone Good

2011-09-25T05:42:00.000-07:00

There is a meaning to this movie. Girls who are out there trying to hook up with a rich husband, take a break and watch this.

True love or money?

Your choice

2011-09-23T19:32:00.000-07:00

I understood something. If it happens to me in the near future, I definitely have to go.

I don't want to feel bad just because of some rotten money.

陪著我的時候想著她

2011-09-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

Unavoidable Gender inequality, today

2011-09-18T08:13:00.000-07:00

I am a feminist to a large extend.

I always believe a woman can be as smart as a man, or even smarter. But no doubt such statements are vague assumptions. A man can also be better or even better than another woman.

But at the very basic, never assume that woman is only good for child birth. We can contribute to the society too! There are many female CEO, directors and even president in the world.

By being able to juggle between work and family make women stronger than men to a large extent. Again, I am not saying a man cannot do this.

I am quite shocked by the comment over here. Never imagined someone of such status would make such absurd comment.

Maybe other than reading the more serious news, take a break and watch this movie

I don't know how she does it

Now you do?

My heart died

2011-09-13T03:17:00.000-07:00

My heart die abit whenever my kindness got abused.
Whenever I open my heart to believe someone new they never fail to traumatize me.
I should close it and be contented with whoever is in my heart, already.

小霸王

2011-09-11T08:34:00.000-07:00

Really glad to be invited to the opening of 小霸王 at One Raffles place this Sunday!

Jeff is really a very friendly and nice person!

For more information, click here.
Do try the food! Nice =D

眼泪

2011-09-08T07:33:00.000-07:00

所有的不开心都自己吞下。。

Nobody Knows

2011-09-07T08:30:00.000-07:00

I asked a question, they told me "Nobody knows".
Do you know?

How to love

還是要幸福

2011-09-05T09:14:00.000-07:00

分个两地，感觉越来越远。。。
决定遗忘，因为你不属于我。。。

你，還是要幸福

我是誰我是誰我是誰

2011-09-01T05:06:00.000-07:00

因为倔强
因为好胜

但我开始忘了，Who I really am?
Who do I really want to be?
What do I really want?

I just love him

2011-08-31T08:16:00.000-07:00

For everything he is..

The next step!

2011-08-28T06:24:00.003-07:00

I really envy my friends who are going overseas to study.
Suddenly so many people around me are flying overseas to study!

It has always been a dream.
I don't know when will it be fulfilled or if I ever get a chance to do it.
Really hope I can do it before I'm 30!

I think there are somethings you can never put a price tag on it, like experience and knowledge. Some people do not see the value in them, because they are so shallow.

Constant

2011-08-25T07:48:00.003-07:00

I used to hate being lied to, I still feel the way today.

忍住

2011-08-20T19:35:00.000-07:00

不哭

忍住不哭我要忍住不哭
望向天空不让眼泪流出
抬头看进云深处等待那日出
把故事结束把从前一笔消除
忍住不哭我要忍住不哭
不能认输因为我相信彩虹总跟着薄雾
会带来幸福在下一个叉路
陪我跳全新的舞

2011-08-19T08:59:00.000-07:00

I wanted to write something, but I just can't pen it down.

Eyes wide open

2011-08-13T21:01:00.000-07:00

Every moment is a learning process.
We learn through scolding, not rebuking.

People need not point out your mistakes, but when they do you know they are not just people but your friend.

THE PERSUIT OF HAPPYNESS

2011-08-08T05:21:00.000-07:00

I was introduced to the movie and I am really glad I watched it.
It is really an inspiring movie.
I actually wanted to catch this in cinema years ago, but I think I was too busy at that moment.

First Day

2011-08-01T07:02:00.000-07:00

It was only the first day and I am so damn tired.

More to come!

生日快乐，永远的 Idol

2011-07-31T08:04:00.000-07:00

Happy 32th Birthday to my favorite idol!

He accompanied me through my 2 years in high school. I will always remember the days when I always make sure I go back home before 5pm to watch 娱乐百分百 on the television before returning school to study for A level with my friends!

During my university days, his music, dramas and shows never fail to entertain me whenever I am bored. Whenever I watch him cracking jokes on television make me forget my problems and cheered me up!

Thanks so much! You definitely will continue to live in my life!

If I Die Young

2011-07-28T00:03:00.000-07:00

Long or short life, it doesn't matter.
What matters is how you lived it.

Live bravely, courageously and with no regrets.

I am embarking on a new journey. It seems dark and uncertain.
But if you hold on to it, the twilight in darkness will appear and lead you to a path so wonderful you never had imagine it.

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

I prefer Sam Tsui's version. You can find the original version here

BUY

2011-07-26T23:58:00.000-07:00

“Should I buy from these old ladies/men selling tissue on streets?”

I had been thinking about this question since last Friday where I had similar encounter twice per day.

First was an encounter by middle-age men who actually approached me and my group of friends asking for coins to take a bus. My female friend rejected immediately. At that moment, I was thinking of giving since the sum he asked was not a large one. I discussed this issued with another friend who was present also at the scene few days later and I realized she is willing to give in too. However, my other female friend rejected too early and was very firmed.

The second encounter was a gathering with a group of university friends. We were dinning when an old lady came up and approached my male friends to buy tissue paper from her. They also rejected firmly.

This had been on my mind lately, should we buy?

I have to admit I was quite disturbed by the rejection by my friends. The female friend told me the middle-age man is fit to work and should fed himself. It makes sense, but isn’t the rejection too cold?

This is definitely adapted from school, “We should not give a man a coin, but teach the man how to fish for the coin”.

Do those old ladies/uncles really have to work till 70s/80s? They worked hard in the building of the nation, why can’t the government help them in some way? They really do not have much time left, why can’t they live at least peacefully?

Nobody's Perfect

2011-07-26T09:36:00.000-07:00

This is the ugly truth

Angered and Disguested

2011-07-22T22:40:00.000-07:00

I am angered by this report here.

These teachers are not even fit to be a human, much less a teacher!

They don't even know how be act like a human being, how can they educate the young?

How did MOE select and hire such people? By paper only right?

This is a vicious circle, the wrong people educating the wrong things and the new generation of teachers are equally disastrous.

I am kind of sick of reading such news on the papers. Totally disappointed with the teachers in Singapore. So what if you did well in school?

I am glad I did not choose to go into MOE and I think I never will.

SHAME on you

做人要那么现实吗？

2011-07-21T07:51:00.000-07:00

I was chatting with my friend from university. She is a second major in CNM like me. She is currently interning in a quite established PR company. She worked till 12 midnight for an event one day, and had been working very hard since she joined the team. Bear in mind she is just an intern! She told me the starting pay for a PR consultant, with degree in her MNC company is just 2K.

Why?

I was told that journalist with a degree was paid 1.9K in an established local female magazine.

Why?

Why are people in the media and entertainment industry treated differently from others? A normal graduate should earn at least 2.4K (this is already considered low). Why are the people in media treated differently?

Does the entertainment you enjoy, from roadshows/events, newspaper/magazines, radios, television programs etc mean anything?

Just one episode of drama (about 70mintues) requite 17.5 hours of filming. You still need editing, advertising, events etc

Why is the treatment so different? Or is this only the case in Singapore where only scientific developments are important?

How many scientific papers do you read per day? Compare with the newspapers/magazines/novels etc.

And if you ask why we still go into this industry, it is because of LOVE. Not money, but the job.

做人要那么现实吗？还是因为这是新加坡？

I'm glad I turned out to be a person who follow my heart.

Dreams cannot fill your stomach but it would starve you to death.

不，跑了

2011-07-20T00:16:00.000-07:00

每天忙忙碌碌，你停下脚步了吗？

没有遗憾？哪人生会不会太完美

2011-07-18T22:54:00.000-07:00

少年的我，很倔。
认为天塌小来也没事。
不认输，决的自己的决定永远是对的。。。

现在的我，学会了“遗憾“。
有些事不可能回到开始，但路还是要走。。。

这就是人生，我们还是在学习着。

I know I am too young to have any life-threatening regrets, but I do. Although 5 years had passed, the heartache stays with me.

시크릿 가든

2011-07-18T05:36:00.000-07:00

I finally finished watching the 20 episodes Koream Drama ,시크릿 가든 (Secret Garden).

I think this is definitely worth my time watching. Although the story plot is still the same-old typical rich guy falling in love with a poor girl but there is something more to it. Some "magic", brotherhood/sisterhood love and gay love etc. I love the way they bicker in the show. I think Hyun Bin's acting is really good and he made me fall in love with him all over again!

改变是对的，坚持也是对的

2011-07-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

I really want to find a job that makes me happy, give me a great sense of satisfaction. It was not easy right from the start. It strikes me hard the fact that I only thought of media. I want to head straight into this industry without knowing specifically which area I am into.

It was not easy at very interview. They not only throw you funny question like "Tell me 5 things you can do with an eraser, not the convention ways. Be creative". Or they suddenly put you through a writing test without prior notifications.

One lady even asked me "Why I got straight As but a C for English/General Paper". It was quite insulting I think. I still smiled to her although I am cursing her in my heart. I mean I look Communications and New Media in University. I did tons of readings and quite a lot of writing and I using Ace these modules. Can't she sees the effort I put in? She does not know how much effort I put in for my second major. I had to check out dictionary for every hard word I encountered. The amount of hard words I checked could reach up to about 20 per reading! I know my English is not very good but it is not that bad too! The thing is I tried!

I even had a phone interview with people from Shanghai. I almost got a job over there. It was quite an exciting experience. Maybe one day I will really work overseas.

Alright, moving to something more positive.. I finally found one. I cannot say it is the perfect one (maybe, I have not started) but it is one I would kind of love! It was not easy to get through. First I had an interview with the director and a writing test. He told me to write an essay on long tail and it's online application which had to be very original. I think I was quite lucky because understanding theory and then applying it is one of the strengths I realized I had after doing so many art projects. Then there was this second interview with the 2 senior managers. They were really demanding and threw me all kind of questions. I was pretty lucky I did my homework and managed to impress them with my knowledge I think. Lastly, there was a telephone interview with the HR manager.

I still think I am really lucky. I did not applied for this position but some agent approached me. I actually picked up her phone call after she tried calling for 2 days.

<改变是对的，坚持也是对的> should this phrase end with a exclamation or question mark? I hope I can end with an exclamation mark.

To those people out there, who do not know what direction to go. I hope that you will find your light one day. Not taking the convention way does not mean you failed. You need courage to change =D

I did it, so can you!

A Lost Entry Found

2011-07-13T05:58:00.000-07:00

I used to draft my posts in a word document before postings. I was trying to clear my documents and came upon this post that I wrote I think a year ago. I think I have to post it, for it would then never be lost.

Here it goes,

A brand new start to a new year (in school) - The title I came out that time

I know I am indecisive; I am always changing my mind, but this always happen when you have a choice. I was stuck with this decision to go for honors or not few weeks back (during the busy special semester period). Everyone was telling me you should go for it. Not everyone has the chance; there were many people who regretted not doing it years later.

“People do not regret what they did, but what they did not do”

“机会不是别人施舍的，是自己挣取的！”

These are all the motivational talks I heard. I really have a hard time making this decision. There were many sleepless nights with headaches. It was even harder as I was taking special semester; there were so much work to do!
I finally made up the decision. I know this is going to be super hard but I want to challenge myself. I want to grow up. The Germany trip made me realizes how dependent on others I am. I think going through this FYP project will make me more independent.

YL says I am committing suicide by taking 26MCs, but I have no choice unless I want to drop my double major.

“You never know how strong a tea bag is until you brew it”, Miss chew. I can never forget this motivation quote she gave me when I was doing my O level. She is the one who made me fall in love with Physics and be so passionate about it.

“Physics is beautiful” as she always told me. I once asked my JC physics teacher to help me write a referee letter, he mentioned that my passion for Physics actually strike him as a person. I was all so passionate about Physics until I came over to University.

A NTU professor once asked me, “You are a straight As student in A level, how come it does not reflect in your university results?” This was a cut through my heart. I felt really sad about this and never wanted to share with anyone.

I think I was lazy, and losing my concentration. If you want to go high, you have no friends.

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找到了这文章，但能找回一年前失去的感觉？

2011-07-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

He finally released his new EP after being in a hiatus for about 3 years. He is really a very talented writer and singer. I think he matured a lot over the years.

微光

This is his latest hit. He wrote it when he was down, during the 3 years when he went into hiatus. The final 2 minutes of the music is pure melody and he dedicated it to people who went through the "down" period of life.

I always think he is very talented. He also kind of look like Stephanie Sun. Do you agree?

He also acted in a short film which is named after one of the new song he wrote. Check out here

I cannot figure out how they managed to get "into" the picture. Can someone enlighten me?

RENEW

2011-07-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

I thought of moving on to a new platform, Tumblre.

I created an account and tried using it. It seems pretty convenient and user-friendly.

However, I decided to give blogspot another chance before ending my blog here. I renewed the outlook and put on some "make-up". I decided to stay on here, reason is sometimes when I am in the mood I do write paragraphs. This would be a better spot to rant my thoughts.

She is damn pretty! oh my!

我愛你

2011-07-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

我愛你

He is really different when He open his mouth and sing.
Really love his voice!
He really seems to be enjoying the music! oh my!

Make a comparison with the original version of the song with his version.

AMAZING!

Best Thing I Never Had

2011-07-08T07:17:00.000-07:00

Some updates...

1. I baked this choco-lava cake with Dap, Jas and Leo =D

2. Commencement was meant to be on 8th July but I missed it! Quite a lot of factors in play. But never mind =D

3. The director approved me. If I get through the HR manager & my direct boss I will be working pretty soon. Pray pray pray! It is really a job I would want =D The waiting is worth.... If I can get it, if not =(

4. I really love her. DIVA!

Best Thing I Never Had

跳-Tone

2011-07-01T09:56:00.000-07:00

眼淚流回去

Do you get what I am trying to say?

THINK! =D

我總是一個人在練習一個人

2011-06-29T08:00:00.000-07:00

作詞：李焯雄
作曲：陳小霞
編曲：林宥嘉

一個人去上班
又一個人去吃飯
再和更多的一個人糾纏
話才說到一半
沒有人聽完
我不孤單
孤單只是
情緒氾濫

一個人出去逛
又一個人躺在床
這晚有多少的一個人沒伴
不夠分另一半
愛已經用完
我不孤單
孤單只是
不夠果斷

我總是一個人
在練習一個人
寂寞是腳跟
回憶是凹痕
也沒有人見證

我總是一個人
在練習一個人
寂寞是腳跟
回憶是凹痕
我一個人共存
沒有人在等著一個人
一個人在等著沒有人
沒有人在等著沒有人

This song is so sad! Only Yoga can bring out the "feel" in it!

2011-06-24T08:45:00.000-07:00

The best way to discover music is to chance upon it without knowing who sang it or knowing the song beforehand.

I overheard this piece over the radio a few times without knowing who sang it and finally found it!

Freya is really a good singer who disappeared for a long time. Not cutting an album for such a nice voice? The only reason I can guess is she is probably not pretty enough to market? This is the reality!

這樣愛你好可怕

有沒有

2011-06-23T07:14:00.001-07:00

The only reason for lack of post is that I am busy.
This was a busy week.

Started watching big bang theory!

有沒有 - 你有沒有爱过我？

Support the Freedom to love !

2011-06-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

I went for the Pink dot event! It is an event for the lesbians, gays, bisexuals and the transsexual. This is the third year running. Saw a lot of interesting outfits.
There was a confession by the organizer who was an ex-teacher. I think he made a very interesting speech. I felt like I was in another rally during the General Election 2011. I think they really went through the hard way. To a large extent their love has to go through more obstacles.

Imagine having to come to terms with your sex orientation which is not accepted as the norms in the society. The process of struggle and pain, only they knew. After accepting who you are, how are they going to find the other partner? What if the people they like are not like them too? There is a large amount of grey area.
Marriage, they cannot register everywhere. Children, can they adopt legally? Who is going to look after them when they age?

Their love is beautiful too. They have the freedom to choose the life they want.
I have to accept that there are many cons too. Yes, they will definitely affect birth rate. There are more HIV positive patients among homosexuals.
I accept their love, but I am not promoting legalization of it. I think there is a dilemma.

P.S For your information I love guys, I am perfectly normal!

"Don't be a drag, just be a queen"

I will always remember

2011-06-16T10:26:00.000-07:00

I met up with Jas and Veron today to do some shopping!
We talked a lot! Remembered the good old times.

I was reminded of why I chose Physics 4 years ago. They both agreed that I was very much influenced by my Physics teacher Miss Chew in secondary school. I cannot deny, I think she taught Physics well. She showed me how interesting Physics can be. Her love and passion for Physics kind of "passed on" to me.

I continued to love Physics in high school, definitely. I love the fact that Physics can be explained. The equations can be derived. They are all related. I can never forget the time I was scolded by Miss Chew by trying to link up all the different Physical concept together. I think this is really an interesting field to do some research.

But another reason for choosing, is right after my A level paper. I can still remember today the satisfaction and happiness I felt upon completing the paper. Really, it was a magical feeling which I never felt again.

Actually when I looked back, I think I was really naive. Taking up a course without really thinking when I want to do in the future. But I never regret, I followed my heart. At that moment, I really love Physics.

I was offered a Science course in NUS and Physics in NTU. Although NTU offered me some sort of cash bursary I decided not to take up the offer. NUS is better in Physics and I really want to be part of it. I think money should not be a factor in making decision. Follow your heart is more important, I really wanted NUS very badly.

This entry is to remind myself why I chose Physics. I never regretted it, but I am a bit sad. University Physics makes me kind of lost the love. Everything is in a rush. I did not learn linear algebra, 3D vectors, go deep into matrices etc in high school etc which make physics really tough. Quantum mechanics is really abstract. I sat through 3 modules on it, even a level 4 with decent grades and not really understanding it. This is something I felt which is really a pity, because in this area you do not need to understand why it happens but just how it happens. This is not beautiful. I asked why, prof said "because it works!".

I went to my school website and checked if Miss Chew is still there. I could not find her. The last time I saw her was 2 years ago, she was pregnant. I don't think I will really track her down. The memory she left me was really good. She had a good image in my mind. I scared by getting too close crashes all the images in my head.

背對背擁抱 - how do you do that?

Don't hate me cos I'm Beautiful

2011-06-12T05:25:00.000-07:00

Almost got killed by a stupid driver today. The car was stationary in the car park and as I walked passed it, the car suddenly moved back. If I did not shouted, I could have been lying in the hospital bed now.

"Don't hate me cos I'm beautiful =P"

A rushed education destroys the beauty of knowledge

2011-06-11T10:21:00.000-07:00

I wanted to put all the ideas I had in mind into words. But I guess I am too lazy. It kills one's imagination too by writing everything out black and white.

I just want to say that I learned most when I was in my secondary school. I had 4 years, unlike in high school. In college, it was even worst.

In the process of accelerating education, the beauty of it was lost. Students don't understand why, they learn how. To the extent of memorizing without really understanding the fact behind.

This is why there is no Noble Price winner in Singapore. The education system is at fault.

Cruise on the land

2011-06-05T08:02:00.001-07:00

There is no official grad trip for me this holiday. I plan to go somewhere with a friend maybe end of this year or early Jan. Maybe that would consider my grad trip? Anyway I don’t really bother about having it. It is so called the norms but why should I follow it blindly? What matters more is do I really want to go for the trip, I guess.

Why wait so long? Reason is my friend started working already! Before I ended my exams. This was a promise so I think we should go! =D

Alright, the mean point I want to make in this blog entry is that I am going away for a super short period! If I failed to return your calls, reply your sms-es (you know why!). I am not bringing any devices and not really planning to hook online. So, tata!

The Hotel I am staying has the shape of a cruise ship! Wohoo =D

They just don't understand

2011-06-03T09:54:00.000-07:00

I still believe I made the right choice =D I do what I love, not what makes money. They say I wasted my 4 years studying Physics, my reply would be If I don't make this choice now I will be wasting more time of my life.

They chose to be like "guys" and are happily making music they love. Do they care about how other feel about them?

Learn to love yourself, Not worrying do people love you?

The Results are OUT

2011-05-30T19:29:00.000-07:00

Woke up at about 7.35am to the sound of my mobile. An sms is sent to my phone displaying my results for the final semester! I was hopping to see better grades so I can create a miracle. My cap did went up but not so much higher! After a while, I fell back to sleep.

Not that I don't care about the results. But I did decently well to push my overall cap higher, so I can't complain. Anyway from the experience I get from the interviews recently, the field I am interested in is not giving a damn about my degree. They did not even ask me about what honors am I getting. They are only interested if I have the experience of can I write.

It makes me think back, is the honors year really worth it? I am the type of person who never regret my decision. So definitely NO! I learned many things in this final year. A lot of "BIG" events happened in my life. Backstabbing really, I think sometimes even the closest person to you is scary. I need to change my specs..

Bet on it

2011-05-28T13:13:00.000-07:00

I always though I can do it later. I can postpone this to another time. I have a one track mind. If I am determine to do this, I make it is the best. Other things would be second in priority.

But maybe we can do them all together?

Maybe we just have to make a bet and risk it!

Sincerity

2011-05-27T02:16:00.000-07:00

Don't go breaking my Heart

Was a bit reluctant to watch this show initially. No reasons, just don't feel like watching it. But I decided to watch it after hearing so much from my friend!

If you think I will tell you about the story bleh go watch it!

I would say it is pretty okay, a love story but not so typical.
There is some lesson learned here.. (At least for me)
I guessed she would choose that guy before it ends. For we(maybe only girls? Because I am one) would rather choose the one who love us more so as to not get hurt. I feel that she still love the other one more, but she chose one who she feels like her more and get give her whatever the one she love can't.

....
....

Sincerity

Sorry, It’s a NO

2011-05-25T20:55:00.000-07:00

Got a few offers but I rejected them. They are not what I wanted. If I were to give in at this point of time my perseverance for the one whole year is wasted! It is still May/June. I still have time to look around =D It is not going to be an “anyhow” choice but one that I really want and will be happy!

Why so Cold?

2011-05-23T08:23:00.000-07:00

I feel I grew cold. Maybe I needed time to be alone, and think about what I really want in life. I had been lazing around, spending time with friends and family. Not forgetting going to interviews, talk to people etc.
I feel I grew more mature! Really! Haha.. I think I got to know myself better =D I need a direct goal, short term, so I will be motivated and give my very best.
I think this is an important period to me, getting the right direction. This explains to my hiatus. I have been talking to my friends, thanks for all the advice and support you gave me! You make me feel blessed and loved!

On a side note, nice song by Blink. Heard it while watch a drama, ENJOY!

The Other Woman

2011-05-21T10:59:00.000-07:00

I was really excited to catch this film by Natalie Portman.
Sadly to admit this, I am quite disappointed by the show.

The other woman gave me the idea of a 3rd party, someone who came in between a couple etc. I thought the film would revolve about how she manage the emotion, pain in becoming the home wrecker.

However the film is more of about another story.. Like how her baby dies, she lives with guilt, her husband feels she does not love her step son etc.

Maybe the film is trying to capture another view which is not what I am expecting.

Everyone hates the other woman in a relationship. But I think it is always more fair if we were to put ourselves in their position. What if you really met the person of your life when he/she is married? When you realised this person feels the same way you feel for her will you be courageous to admit it? Are they wrong to do it?

Would you risk being one?

Someone Like You

2011-05-17T10:41:00.000-07:00

I think everyone is Unique, special in our own way.
You can never find someone like you...

Money cannot buy you happiness

2011-05-13T12:53:00.000-07:00

It's 4am, and I am still wild awake.
Not that I can't sleep or I'm thinking alot. Have to admit I have been watch Gossip Girl.

But somethings in the show do relate to my feelings right now. College, relationships, focus.. What do you want in life? Finding purpose.

I have to admit I am lost. I always thought I know what I want to do after graduation. But is that what I really want? I always thought perfect is the right thing for me. But do i really heart them all? Practicality? Materialistic? Name it all, but you don't know me well.

I look in the mirror and I see a lost soul. I realized I am not as independent as I thought I am, I am not as courageous as I thought I am. Was them all a mask I had been wearing?

I think I need to be alone, for some time. Figure out things and work things out. Brute force would help? Hitting everything and see which one works?

Why do we need to get so practical? Price tag everywhere? I used to think I can starve to death happily following my passion. Can I?

Passion or Bread?

2011-05-12T10:55:00.000-07:00

For a moment I am so certain what I wanted, at the other moment I am so lost.
You cannot have both sides of the world, yes I know.

I worked so hard, thinking I would reach what I wanted at the end of it.
But I am so wrong, how many people is holding a job of their dream?

They say passion cannot feed your stomach.

是時候了

2011-05-05T18:13:00.000-07:00

Ended the last paper yesterday.

It has been a pretty hard year for me. It is not easy juggling with 5 modules every semester and doing FYP concurrently. I am glad that I made it! Thanks for all the help, concern and support I received.

The process of gaining something means you have to lose something. This is the cold hard truths. I think I have lost "something" in the process, but those who stayed and stood by you through the goods and bads are only those who are worth your heart =D

"Physics is History"
I love Physics, but I think it is not what I foresee myself doing in the rest of my life! I am clear of what I want and the direction seems bright right now =D

陪你到最後

2011-04-08T17:00:00.001-07:00

2011-04-08T03:47:00.001-07:00

My heart died a bit.
I feel like crying...............
But I will be fine

Really

What Are Words

2011-03-17T09:20:00.000-07:00

I think she is very lucky.
Though she had a mishap which changed her life, but she found her true love..
Someone who is willing to take care of her for the rest of her life..
Happiness can be very simple =D

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

机会

2011-03-11T18:31:00.000-08:00

This is a crazy week!
There is finally some response =D
I must put up a good performance!

机会不是别人施舍的，是要自己争取！

I think I will be kept very busy from now!

Something exciting in May! Hopefully it become realise!

一萬零一夜

等一等

2011-03-02T06:58:00.000-08:00

The process of waiting is so tiring..
Let's hold on to what is reachable rather than the unattainable..
Smile to the start of the day and smile to the end..
I had moved on and felt happier =D
No matter what, you will never see a dishearted Gwen =D

冷血動物